Weeding and watering

[mustardseed]

I like this Msd it is stated in the positive current voice as if you have already achieved it.

Just one minor observation- there is some negating self talk in there. For instance I let other people sway me......

Could that be said as: I consider others opinions and where I consider this to be important I validate.

V

That is what I am trying to do. I think in the past I always did let people sway me. I always felt other people's opinions had more value than mine.

I realize I am getting better at that now. I am starting to build my confidence. It started with my job. I love it. It restored my confidence that I do belong in the field even after last year's disastrous work situation. I also picked up some after school work. A job that I was also feeling unqualified for and very insecure about. I have now been at it for over a few weeks and while I still am feeling my way through, I realize that my doubts are normal. That I am just as qualified as the next person, maybe even moreso because I enjoy the work and this particular case is very hard for most people. I also learned to use the insecurity to make me grow rather than make me quit. I tapped into some important resources to make this a success.

I am not loving the second job, but I do like it and as I get more confident I sure I will get to the point where I look forward to going. Right now I am still a little whiny on the days when I know I have to go there after work.

Things are getting better. The D has been at a standstill due to lack of participation on WH and his Ls part, but the court is starting to get frustrated with them and I am beginning to sense the winds changing. Makes it much easier to not play into his games because I think I am going to start to see some progress in the matter soon.

I also have gotten to the point where I don't have OW a second thought. When I do think of her I am no longer angry at her. I think she is simply a new target for him. I won't go so far as to say I feel for her, but she is no longer an enemy. She is a non-entity. I can even help my D do projects for her class and talk about her in a positive way without having thoughts of ripping her hair out. So I guess I've come a long way.