Thank you Pinn. I do believe NC and detachment is keeping me from further pain, I just wish that H wasn't so relieved to be away from me. It feels like he is just over it.
I just noticed he transfered money to my account and it's not alot but I am grateful. The thing is he knows the predicament he's left me in. I haven't asked him for help with anything but he has offered but hasn't done what he said until now but even still, I need so much more. Also we've been NC as I've been waiting for him to initiate as he said he would.
Should I reach out and say thank you or something? And if so, how should I say it. He used to say that I seemed ungrateful and I guess he felt I took advantage of him. Should I say something to him? Will this mess up all the dark/DBing I've done? I dont want to start all over again.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
