[broke]

Thanks to everyone for weighing in. What would you guys think of me encouraging H to take S12 and his friends to a different game? I'm hesitant to take H's tickets for a couple reasons:

- I feel like it's him still controlling my life
- he will think I'm unreasonable for not inviting him on S12's bday and we will fight about it
- if I feel backed into a corner and H comes, that sends wrong message to S12 - he desperately wants us to reconcile (probably more than I do)


Divorce care was good last night. One of the best classes I think because it was about forgiveness and why it is so important for the LBS. Probably will have to go back when I'm ready to forgive :-).

I realized during class last night that was why being with H was so hard yesterday. It's brought up some old wounds:

- he's so much further ahead of me in wanting this D
- he never gave us a chance to fix what was wrong

It's hard to forgive when you feel like your best friend moved on without giving you the chance to fix anything. It's actually harder for me to forgive that than the cheating.....

Anyway, S12 has day off school because of conferences so I'm going to take him out to beat me at golf :-). I hope everyone has a good day and that the roller coaster doesn't dip for us DB'ers!