Thanks Painter for your insight. I really thought I was asking a reasonable question because I was just so scared of being disappointed. But I can see how that would scare her off. I'm going to confess that I did not do good DB today. I was feeling confident I guess so when W texted that we shouldn't talk after all, I wrote back. OK. We could just stare off into space? She wrote back, "Seriously" with a little smiley face. So I asked if she was watching something on the news that I knew she was interested in (an interest that we share, but ow does not) and she wrote back: yoga. I replied, so then you will be staring off into space I guess. Her response: That is funny!!

So, I don't know if that is pursuing or just being light and funny, something I always was w her. It feels like it works better than NC in my situation. I'm also GALing a lot and I've started to post some pics on FB, just in case she's looking.

I wish I knew if that really was ow w red puffy eyes today. I mean, I know her well, I'm just doubting myself and can't believe that she would be crying at work, especially coming from someone else's office.

I wish I didn't care so much.


11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker
Reconciling since late April 2016
Don't give up until it's time, then move on
Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat