I swear there some sparkling somewhere...(4)

[Sparkls]

Journaling:
Went out with friends to meet some friends of friends. Had a really good time drinking and playing games. Would've stayed longer but I had to take care of the pups and my ride was leaving (can't stay the night when the pups are waiting for me at home).
Makes me annoyed that I"m now having to take care of these guys all by myself. I love them but it was much easier when the responsibility was shared.

That aside, I'm not even sure what I feel right now.
There's all this talk of giving it time and being patient. I'm trying but there are some serious life decisions that will have to happen after Friday. And its looking like those decisions will be without H. I guess I still can't internalize the idea that if he doesn't come back before I move doesn't mean he isn't going to come back. Thornton's probably right. People move. Not sure I really believe in "what's meant to be" but I'd like to believe its true and he'll come back.
As I mentioned on I believe Tim's thread: ended up looking at the mutual bank account today. H bought desserts from a dessert shop up the street from me after he picked up his W2s about bought enough for several people.
Other thing I did notice was that he hasn't been spending money on OW. Hasn't taken her out to eat, etc. So either she's paying (which I doubt since she's unemployed) or they're basically living off of OW's best friend.
Means nothing, just an interesting observation.
I guess right now the best emotion I can describe is just numb. I guess there are worse ways to feel. I've felt them all today.