V- I told him I wouldn't date( doesn't mean I won't). I'm just not ready at all.
I was half tempted to tell him I could have a boyfriend in 10 minutes if I really wanted or show him a photo on my friend date with my guy friend(I can but I don't want one.) but I thought that would be bad idea.
I remembered the keep my cards close. I refused to agree on anything D wise. (I remembered that advice from you.)
The only thing I believed out of what he said was maybe that he doesn't regret the kids and he loves them. That's probably it. Everything else I felt here was trying to cut out my heart and hand me it.
As much as I want the house, I don't. I feel like, I want it for the kids. I don't want it because it would still be his. I would feel like I could never move on living in his house with him wanting to still share and come over. Will we be divorced with him chillin in his underwear on the couch still? I just don't see that as even a decent option.
Called the L just to ask about the house. He said if I went for the house it would be the same thing H is offering but only for 2-3 years. I think that's what he said the Max I could try for and that's TRY.
Its his house in his name with him paying the mortgage and that would be best case scenario. He thinks its a good deal if I can get sole use..but also H can say when I get a boyfriend or engaged he gets his house back in the divorce and legally he can do that. I get sole use UNLESS xxx.
L also said if we ended up in court and H gets a lawyer that says I turn down the house for the kids when my other option is living at my moms where they have to share a room that it looks bad for me for not doing what's best for the babies.
I feel like I'm going to end up being really screwed now either way.
