Still hoping for progress II

[daybyday]

I had to take something to my S who is at WAW new apt. He showed me around his room and his bathroom and was excited. I was excited for him too. Sad for me though. I was hoping it would be kind of junky so coming back home with me would be something he could look forward to. It's a nice apt. Nothing fancy but nice. It has a park with basketball courts with other kids for S to play with. I live on a street where there are no kids for him to play with.

It's not fair that WAW get to start out fresh and new while we LBH are left with multiple cat boxes to clean out, the repairs to house, grass to mow,the 20 year old fixtures and various other stuff.

They get to just check out and start fresh just like she did the M. I wish I could just check out when it gets rough but that wouldnt be me.

Just lamenting a bit as it just doesnt seem fair. We get to clean up the remnants and mess of the M.

Sorry I'm such a bummer. Just another punch to the gut and I was doing pretty good. I hadnt really cried in a couple days. Of course I had my sweet boy with me.

I don't know how some of you do it. Months and months of DBing. I'm only on my third day of sep. and it seems unattainable to me at this point. So many obstacles.

I did make the gym and felt good about that. I HAVE to make new friends. My best buddy lives 1.5hours away. I just am not very social and would have a hard time making friends. Something has got to give. Please excuse my whining as many of you have much worse sit. than mine, but we all have one thing in common. We miss our spouses and time is slow a S.O.B.