I understand your disappointment at wanting to keep your family intact. I'm further down that line then you and it will arise in me sometimes but it becomes less and less.
I will tell you this. One day you will look at yourself and know you are a success story. It takes time......but it will come to pass.
I know it's hard to look past the divorce. You are a success in many ways.....being a father, mentor, roll model(for your son and others on this board). One day you will see things more clearly and as not one solely defined as "not staying married". I think you have a lot more to offer and you will see this as you travel your journey.
The gifts of this journey come to us in time and in keeping our eyes open as we live it.
My EXW if we had stayed married would have bogged me down as well as our kids. Unfortunately the ones that get stuck in this MLC tunnel just don't make role model type decisions. That took me a while to accept as well.
