I understand Hope. That's why they say you become one person when marrying. Now 1/2 of you is missing. The only thing I can think of is WAS must feel similar, although they surely do not show it to us.
Me 41 W 33 M 2013 Suspect A 11/15 Confirm A 1/16 She moved out 2/14/16 Stepson 13 Stepson 16