My first post - please be nice.

[collin]

I know this isn't a self help forum. I just feel like I have no where else to turn. I feel beaten and defeated. All I feel like doing is wallowing in my self-pity. And I can't tell my wife that. I can't tell the one I vowed my life to that I am overwhelmed by life and feel like I'm drowning. I have no one. She's part of the reason I feel like this. She can't help. Every time I try talking to her it hurts worse. Oh well. I guess man up right? That's all I can do.