Your sitch is almost identical to almost everyone here. It's like the WAS attend a class on what to say and do when they decide to leave. All to familiar...
My best, advice to keep doing what you're doing. Stay dark, keep working on yourself, and keep posting here.
It's going to hurt for a while. You want the pain to stop as quickly as possible. It doesn't work that way. You have a long road ahead of you but you can do it, even when you think you can't go on another day. That the pain is too intense.
Exercise, sleep, eat healthy, see your doctor if you have to, and remember to breathe.
