JujuB - I am trying numbers 3 and 4 I guess. Number 1 I am not even close to being ready for. I feel like I would "settle" right now for less than I deserve. I want to figure out who I am before I go and look for my mate. Right now, kindness, loyalty and respect sound great, so my friends are worried I would latch on to the first nice guy that came along :-). Number 2 I haven't tried yet - maybe I should because maybe that would help me detach more. Not sure.
Thornton - I think H came in the house to see S12 because he hadn't seen him in almost a week. He asked me if he could tuck him in when he dropped off S15's stuff and I said yes. But, the remainder of your advice is correct:
- I can't mind read - I never could with H. - It did take a long time to get here and I know it could take a long time to repair. - Yes, he probably thinks that my changes aren't permanent, that it may be an act.
Great observations, thanks for being so positive. It definitely helps!
Going to try to focus on the positive today (even with this stupid time change and dreary rain!) Hope everyone has a great start to the week!
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16
