Today I woke up angry, and I'm ending my day proud.
I'm living with the MIL, and am working with my SIL...nobody fall over. So this morning, it was just hard feeling like how the HELL does this crap happen to me? Seriously, I feel like I'm in the Truman show (you know...the movie). Anyways...
I still feel good, living my life. It helps WAH isn't around, for sure but I really am happy...despite the fact that there's a chance I haven't completely dropped the rope. I'm focusing on me, d4, 180s, GAL 1000% now. I've forgiven myself for not seeing the red flags along the way that we were headed here...but, I've also stopped playing mental chess and pursuing, over thinking, bringing up anything in conversation. I thought I would go one whole day without talking to him...by my choice...and then he messages me asking about d4, and he seemed interested in my life for the first time in months. Still, I'm back to the 37 rules and they do work. Not sharing any details about my life now, just living it. If he's desperate for info, he could always ask his mom...but his mom will tell him to talk to me lol. She doesn't play these games.
Just journaling that, wondering what the next month will bring since I won't see him until the end of April.
Up early to hit the gym :] My 180 is consistency with it.l
