I just want so badly for him to regret this. I don't think that he does And I do not think that he will. I want so badly, for one day the situation to be reversed. Where I no longer want him back and he wants to come back.
I have dreams about this, JujuB, but I agree I think that living a fulfilled, happy life is truly our best revenge. And, I am with you, I just posted a while ago that I would like to really detach and stop faking it. I know that is where DB'ing is supposed to take us if we choose to continue on the journey of being the best version of ourselves we can be. But, sometimes it is just exhausting and sometimes it is hard not to focus on reconciling when that is really what we want.
I don't have much great advice tonight, JujuB, except for you to know that you are not alone. And, you are a loyal, smart, kind and devoted mom and wife. Whether it is your H or another man, that person will be very blessed to have you in your next relationship. I hope you are physically feeling better so you can get back to working out and GALing.
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16
