I would think it's all about how much self-control you can display. So far, it seems you have had a hard time stopping yourself from pushing her whenever you're in touch. You know that it works against you - will you be able to not push her or suggest anything? Can you let her take the lead completely and not take it one step further? That could be your challenge and possibly your biggest 180.

Maybe it will help if you really can internalize that *this will not be your last chance to talk to her*. And take note here: You went NC for two weeks and IT WORKED!

If your conversation goes well, I don't think it would hurt to tell her about your dreams, if you can do it in a light-ish way. They are very interesting. And they definitely leave the door open for her.

M 16 yrs, WH62, P54
3 adult blended kids
EA 11/13, BD1 6/14
PA fall 14, BD2 2/15
Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15
Separated 4/16
WH moved OW in 5/16
Divorced 6/15/17