Wow! Thaks job, cil and HaWho. You guys are the best!

I really am not trying to mind read or guess WTH he is doing.That would be fruitless, because even HE does not know what he is doing!!

I know he is depressed and so does he. He has mentioned three times this weekend, and he has a history of it. He is on Lexapro, but he is drinking so much, I am thinking the meds are having no affect. Cil-- I will def see if I can find that book at library or bookstore. Could he be in this stage already?

I have decided NOT to go to Mexico. I have too much self-respect and pride. This trip was suppose to be like a second honeymoon/reconciliation trip that we were both looking forward to. Couples massage/private in room dining, etc. I do not want to put myself thru the torture of none of that happening. Furthermore, I DO NOT CARE WHAT SHE THINKS!! She thinks she won? Well, she won the booby prize.

As far as the apartment thing, we cannot financially afford for him to do that right now anyhow. He gets a bonus in May, which we will pay off all our debt and hopefully our house will be sold by then. That is why he is waiting til June. But saying it and actually doing are two different things.

Do you guys think I need an L at this time? I am really scared this time, he seems so sure (but I guess he did at BD#1 too), but this OW!!!! I am finding it super hard to be upbeat and confident like I was last time. That was one of my 180s--no mopey, angry, bitchy melweb!! But now I can hardly look at him. And HE keeps bringing up R, and finances.

BLAHHHHHH!!! I am so confused.


Me 47 H 49 S18 S15
M 21
BD #1 11/09/15 ILYBNILY
I believe we are Piecing 1/2/16
Suspect EA/PA? 2/28/16
BD #2 "He tried, but needs passion." 2/28/16
Confirm PA 3/11/16, he's leaving in June
H leaves 5/7/16