Getting out of in house S (8)

[vise82]

Hey,

Just had a blast with both boys, took them to the gym while the open house was on. W hosts the open house so she has not been around.

After on Sat W picked up some food and we all ate at the dining room table. It was nice. After W wanted a movie night with the kids. Was fun also with snacks and pop. I put the kids to bed and W already moved to her tv I guess for Our separated time at night.

We have an offer on the house and are going back and forth on it. It is on our hands to accept and W is thinking of countering for 6 thousand dollars. I told her no, we are in control right now, lets just accept it. She agreed. No point in risking losing the offer over that amount of money.

The next day I can see she is aggravated, and poor S7 is getting the brunt of it, he is talking back and she goes right into him. Then she turns to me telling me I better start helping her and supporting this discipline instead of just sitting there and saying nothing. I said hey its your moment of disciplining I just let you do it. When its something I have to take care of I do.

Mind reading tells me the selling of the house is getting to the end. Maybe its bothering her, second guessing her decisions to S?

I have given up any ideas of trying to stop this, I cant see any chance for R unless we are in separate homes. I want to say something but we are so far ahead in the process and deposits have been made I cant. I also don't want to look weak and needy.

There was a good one where we met some of kids friends at the gym and one of them has a name that could be a boy or a girls name. W caught on that and with out flinching asked who the girl was that we were splashing. It was like she caught me, but no its a boy that goes to the kids school.

I am trying to picture in my head how the interactions are going to be once we are in separate houses. It has the possibility of no contact for days.

W is going ahead with the new car. I guess that is how she is replacing me for car stuff, new car, longer warranty. I did mention it to her about the new car will have bi weekly payment the same as the old cars monthly payments. I ask why could you get the payment lowered, she said she did and that we are paying bi weekly now. um no we are not. so the payments that I WILL BE MAKING TO HER WILL BE GOING TO PAY FOR THE NEW CAR AND NOT FOR KIDS STUFF. She is stuck on getting this new car, and for what to show everyone that she made such a good decision S because lok at the new car she can have now.

I let it go. so now I just need to get a hold of my L to get the S agreement signed.

Oh and W told me about a bachelorette party she is going to next week end. She will be with girls a lot younger and a lot better looking to the bar scene. to which she has not been to in like many years ago. It will be a time to appreciate the life at home as outing like that make you feel so old.

I have my GAL soccer today, should be fun. I was more vocal with the other players last game. I just felt more relaxed because I have my house lined up. I can see and end to this limbo some what and with us in separate houses I have new hope.

So inlaws have the kids for a couple of days. they sleep over tonight so W and I will be home alone. That is if she comes home. I over heard her saying to the kids that she will be leaving right after desert. Seems a little early to me to leave.

I know way too much about W. I need to start taking control of my life. One day at a time.