I hope you had a great weekend trumpet. I understand it's not all roses right now, the main thing is you are doing what you see is best for you and your kids.
Absolutely there will be down days. It's all part of the grieving process, and there is no visible finish line. It just stops one day. Trust me. I am still grieving my M, but i don't grieve first M. We have been apart 8 years and it took me probably 2-3 to get through that one. However I didn't DB, I drank. So I have faith this time will be quicker and better for me.
You will come out of this the best Trumpet you can be, that I do not doubt. It won't be easy, the best things usually aren't though.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
