I did find that part tough. How to reconcile caring for some one who has hurt a child. I stood and stood but xh2 wanted out. He was going to do it in any way he had to which was making me the bad guy.
I can get that, but that doesn't make me the bad guy, I laugh now about xh2 critism. They have become so invalid that they actually make me chuckle. As weird as that is. Not they even were valid at the time.
Some of crazed notions of xh2 will undoubtably be his undoing if he continues down that path. The best bit IMHO is it won't effect Me, not one bit.
There have been some far off grumblings, which show xh2 has feeling and is still very much in his head in the r!
I left the ashes long ago, and it feels like someone else when I talk about it or others try to bait me. As odd as that is (being baited) it keeps happening, it's like a slow motion train wreck I see coming and just side step. It's really weird how that is happening but boy each time it happens its powerful and such a great feeling.
Especially when you know how to side step, and you have truely changed that whole knee jerk.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
I've been feeling seedy on on a off for weeks. Like about 3. I keep hoping to either get major sick and over it or it just to flock off.
It was very odd yesterday, I was not great all day, then a sudden turnaround and I'm energised, perky, sparky it was unbelievable. I just wish I could tap that but the sick tired odd feelings are still gone today. Shrugs I never let these things get too much, and often like most women just keep on going but roll on holiday.
Is been great to follow pink, things look like they are settling in ways that are going to be good for co parenting. If nothing else comes.
And those others who have had bad change another day things may be better.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
Well thing just got a little much and I seem to have fallen and back slid In Someways. Too much contact with the l I suspect.
Getting fished by gossips again, and I think no of your business is a more than adequate reply. In some ways I'm noticing the fishing more but not sure if I'm sensitive or it's happening more. Tired again. Working heaps and got plenty gal on, almost too much.
But things ebb and flow so we see how things go.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
That sort of circling ruminating type thinking, it just gets a hold every now and then.
Those what ifs, and trying to make sure all the things are planned or outcomes are covered.
Bf is good, we had a training weekend with horses this weekend that was really fun. Bought out the mature old me, silly immature norty adult humor it was fun.
got a project to complete a small resto job, on an old plow. It's really got me, and I'm keen to start but it won't be for a few weeks. stomps foot I want it now!
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
Well the whole washing machine thing quite a bit lately.
There are somethings going on, that I can't really talk about but in the short version I think someone is trying to Convice me I'm crazy. It's just odd, really odd.
I recently went away for nearly a week, and things were good. Once I'm back yeah the washing machine tread Mill stuff is back.
Had a family dinner to go to and it was interesting, given some of the learning this year or so I found some of the roles really interesting. The fact I sort of fell in without meaning to and later decided it was just better off to walk away mentally.
I did see others role far ore clearly than ever before, which was interesting. Very interesting.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
Damn, that took off before I had much chance to even type anything.
So had some drama to solve, and that I think is now done. Trying to raise money for the L. Need a bit there as it's going to court.
And the resto is now finished, got to try me plow out soon. I got my pistol licence too. Trying to force the truck licence thru as well. Just been very busy head down bottom up!
So anyone whant to chat and update.... Oh and I saw xh2 I almost walked Into him. Did the whole back pedal before that tho. Seems his ow is now moved in.
And you know what I do as some said find it funny and humorous, I feel sad for her the ow.
I think that counts as detached right! Alhought I had an encounter with someone who know thinks it's ok to have a gf, if your wife's old, ill or infirm or just plain seperated by circumstance of work! I was horrified and couldn't help my self and got a little passionate.
Which is a something I didn't want to do, but it's done now.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
stomps foot I want it now!