It is hard to feel the sadness - but it is also a good thing. We need to revisit and grieve and start to let go. Difficult to feel, but healthy. Try to accept your feelings and honour them. Your M as it was mattered to you and of course it is difficult to work through what has happened. Who knows what the future may hold, but your M as it was has come to an end.
You are doing so well, and are moving solidly forward, Sweetie - credit to you xx
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus