Stepping in a Different Direction

[Pax_luv]

Hello,
Dang, H has been on my mind all day, thus causing me to cycle through the sadness a bit. I've done pretty well with detachment over the last 2 months and have been GAL like crazy. Life has been great. I've really been letting go, but something in my heart prompted me to go back to the MLC books and DR. I read all morning, had a few good cries, and still just can't shake h out of my brain. So strange... But I guess it's just par for the course! We're bound to have down days.

His bday is on Monday and I'll be seeing him for dog swap. So weird to not be planning a dinner for him or baking a cake.

In about a week we'll also be coming up on the anniversary of ILYBINILWY. I really thought we could make it through that.... And now I'm crying again. Arg. Tough day.