Sparkling not so bright

[Sparkls]

Maybe that's why I feel like I don't have anything right now. Its been very difficult for me to find any hope in this. And it's tarnished everything in my life.
Like match day is supposed to be the best day of med school: the day when all that we've gone through was *for* something. And I couldn't care less. My friends are all bringing their husbands/wives and its just another painful reminder that the person who I should be sharing this with is in someone else's bed.
A friend who is having a hard time in his marriage and I were talking and he said that I shouldn't have to wait for someone I love to do the right thing. But that's exactly what I'm doing. If only I could see the future and know that it was worth while.