Who am I and what do I want?

[JGuy]

To me, it sounds as if she's putting just enough bait on the hook to keep you nibbling.

Yes, that has occurred to me Sandi. She is being awfully opaque and mysterious. I am feeling pretty antsy and tired of it. There isn't much left in me that motivates me to hold on, other than the fact that ending the M is a big deal, and the uncertainty that maybe my W will somehow come around. But even if she does, we are just so different. There is just so much conflict and she isn't the type of person who really wants to work through all of that stuff. I know this would need to change in order for us to have a harmonious M and really grow together and work through our issues. I often feel like I am fooling myself by holding onto a hope that somehow she will change. I have been getting a lot of advice recently that hoping for someone to change is a losing game. You need to either let go and find a way to accept them as they are, or end the R if the issue is really a showstopper.

I have been leaning in this direction more and more, recently.