Still moving in a new direction

[mleigh4]

Thank you Job. We are still feeling a bit under the weather but hoping some rest this weekend helps.

I needed to take my dog to the vet yesterday. She is doing this weird licking thing, she licks the air, over and over. Anyway, we are testing to see if this is due to an upset tummy and nausea, so we are trying out some tummy calmers for her.

H wanted to know what happened, so I sent him TM yesterday. A couple of hours later, he responded with a SUPER long text about a 3 1/2 hour meeting he just finished with an unhappy client. He had planned on coming to visit S, but was starving because he missed lunch and needed to get food and how about if he comes by tomorrow?

That was fine with me, but It just cracks me up. Job, you are not kidding about everything being about them. My eyes have really opened to his self centeredness and being easily overwhelmed. He had a rough meeting, so he can't see his son, avoided him when he was sick already.

Meanwhile, this week I took care of house repairs, vet appt, sick son all while being under the weather myself and working.

And I realize, it's now gotten to the point where he buys toys, and gets upset with S if he does not respond the way H wants him to. (Go kart, skooter, music app for computer, bow and arrow, mine craft band) All of a sudden, S becomes a lazy, ungrateful spoiled kid who will not amount to anything. Um, who is acting like the spoiled brat? I really am seeing a pattern here. H gets toys, S is not interested, H gets angry and lashes out at me. I wonder why?

It's all become so clear, the world H is living in, it truly revolves around him, his wants, his needs, they all come first.

Definitely something I will bring up in counseling this week. H has some high expectations of S, while meanwhile, expecting others to have none for him. This MLC stuff is truly amazing to witness! But much easier to deal with when you can see it for what it is. I am not angry or anything, just observing and feeling a bit defensive of S and the way H acted during the course of his birthday. I feel a bit disappointed in H.

I am testing out a new "diet" for S and I. We pretty much follow a Mediterranean diet already, but I am looking to tweak it a bit by using less processed boxed foods, and more fresh foods. Less red meat and less meat altogether. I told S, I could easily live on veggies, pastas and rice. He said, let's do it! Lol. So I am looking up some healthy options for us and going to do a shopping today. It's funny, I got trained by H, he needs meat in every meal. I have still been following that rule. 2 1/2 years later, I realize, I don't need or want that!