Feeling he's in MLC, but in D process

[ciluzen]

-Feeling a little down today. Its H's birthday and I sent him a Happy Birthday text. He sent me one which I thanked him for so I sent his (no reply). So that was on par with the new normal.

But then I spoke to my mother, who had to tell me she called to wish him a happy birthday and briefly spoke to him. She then said she asked if he would be getting cake anywhere and he had replied he probably was. She loves to dish. So I had to set some boundaries. I explained that I didn't need to hear things like that. It just starts my mind cycling on who? where? Did he ask? How many former "friends"? Big party? What am I missing? I then start comparing all the things I have had to do for myself and how I feel like a victim in this situation. I explained again. THIS IS NOT FOR YOU TO GET INVOLVED IN. THIS IS NOT FOR YOUR ENTERTAINMENT. I DO NOT WANT TO HEAR ALL THAT HE IS DOING OR WHAT PEOPLE ARE DOING FOR HIM. I really don't want to focus on him. She calls me twice a day to talk about how I'm doing, but I've taken to avoiding her calls due to her using it to entertain herself under the guise of helping.

Anyway. Just venting. I'll go back to my regularly scheduled getting my house sorted and packed up party.