Now what?/ One Day at a Time

[melweb]

H comes into my bedroom this morning to talk. How am I suppose to avoid R talks, if he keeps bringing it up? Anyhow, I can 't remember the whole conversation, but basically, he is done. Its over. Has been for awhile. It hurt him to see how much I cared and how commited I was to saving the M. He cries.

I am calm, and rational and NOT crying. . He wants me not to say anything to her H cuz she has three young girls. Her marriage was miserable and shes been trying to get out of her M too. He wants to know what I expect from him til June when he leaves. I say if I could kick you out now I would, but I ask for consideration . He agrees. Says he still loves me.

Then he askes me how work is going. Do I like it? ( i just started). He asks if I still want to go to Mexico with him in April? I really do,( call me crazy) but tell him I need to think about it and get back to him. Several of his close friends who know of A will be there and I might be embarrassed. Any thoughts? Should I do this trip or not?