It says you love him, pure and simple. The ability to love is humankind's most important quality, and it doesn't diminish you in any way that you love another person fully.

I feel the exact same way about my H of 25 years as you do about yours. He's all I want or have ever wanted, and I struggle to envision a life without him in it.

I want to grow old with him, but the crummy reality is that we can't make someone else want us. We have to practice loving detachment for our own preservation.

H: 44, Me: 45
Married: 20 y Together: 25 y
no kids
Walk away: 12/15
Asked for temp separation 12/25/15
PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had)
H filed for D 5/16