Thanks everyone. I do feel like it would have been therapeutic for her to read it. It would have been a waste of my time. Nothing good would have come from it. I know how I feel and that's for me. Not her.
And MB. Your right. I don't know why I stopped journaling here. It's not like nothing is happening in my life. I'm on my way to get my older 2 kidlets right now so maybe before bed if I remember I will journal.
Talking just now brought up some sadness tho. I am going to have all my kids for the weekend and tomorrow is my birthday. I just realized it will be the first in awhile that W hasn't made me a cake or my special bday supper. ( steak Neptune).
As much as I feel done I know I still have a hand or 2 on the rope. I also know I'll be ok. Already feeling better.
Not sure where I would be if I didn't have the support of you all. First D it was a bottle. And it cost me a lot. Having all of you had made a huge difference in my attitude and approach to life.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
