Still NC - God Bless the broken road

[broke]

You have been doing so great….maybe wait and go shopping there a different time if you don't feel up for it today. Isn't there other stores that you can find fun, preppy clothes to do some retail therapy at? Maybe some new stores you haven't tried yet? I just don't want to see you hurting again because you've really seemed on an upswing lately. Don't rush the recovery if it doesn't feel right….

[Rednail]

I agree with broke. You are doing so good and in a really good swing of things.

Do they have the same store but another location? You could go on your day off and make it a day trip alone or with a friend. Go to a different town, get lunch, get the clothes you want from the store without having to go to the one that is making you anxious.

[Thornton]

Part of me feels like I have to do this, Broke. I avoid so many things that are triggers for me when it comes to W. The fear paralyzes me.

I haven't been on Facebook in almost 2 months because I don't want to come across a picture of W out on the town. My FB friends probably think I've passed away..

I feel like I have to force myself to face my anxieties.

I know she sure as hell isn't worried about running into me or visiting places that remind her of me. I don't think she could care less to be honest.

I dont know. I have a few more hours to decide what to do. I think I'm missing W today.

[broke]

Thornton,

I don't think you need to "force" it though….seems too early. IMHO, why undo what progress you've made (it has been hard fought)? And, we know how hard weekends can be, right?! I don't want you to start out the weekend feeling miserable…..sad is okay because you miss her and I think it is easier to "climb out" of sad.

But, if you go, we are here to support you. Just remember -retail therapy is supposed to be joyful though :-)!

[Thornton]

All good points, Broke. Thanks for sharing your perspective, perhaps you are right.

Maybe I'll hold off and not rock the PMA boat I'm on.

Maybe I'm feeling melancholy because another weekend is upon us and I wish I could spend some time with W.

[broke]

What about that movie you were going to go see? Maybe a really funny one! I tool the boys to see Star Wars like 4 times (it was good but not 4x good in my opinion). But, action or comedy may be a great break from thinking….

Keep us posted - we are here if you need us

[Rednail]

I understand the facebook thing. I haven't logged on in WEEKS because I don't want to see or know anything about my H and his adventures. I had my friend show me my page and it is 90% of things I am tagged in from other people. Least my friends keep my page up to date sorta.

Weekends are the hardest for us. Like broke said whatever you decide we all love you and are here for you no matter what you decide.

[Sparkls]

What was the verdict? DId you end up going?

[WillDo]

Hang in there. W will come running to you.

[Thornton]

Nope. I ended up not going. I'll hold off for a while. I didn't want to start the weekend off in a funk.