You are probably right in that I am swinging from side to side. I think this is mostly just internally and not something she is aware of since we really don't have much contact. Still working on detaching. I think I am making progress, I haven't logged on to her game in over a week. I just assume that she is going to be doing more of the same and I know that it doesn't help to see it. Also, doing good staying busy with other things as my idle time is the worst for thoughts.
My goal for the speech was not to say hurry up, but more along the lines of I accept your decision.
I don't want to be viewed as controlling so I am leaning towards just giving her the info and not making it a big deal where R convo's come up. Old me would say NO WAY go figure it out. 10 minutes from now I will probably be back to not wanting to give it to her....Going to read and reread my threads to center my emotions.
