Eyes forward Sotto..

[Sotto]

Thanks Job and Bttrfly- yes, he's a good lad and I'm pleased we are able to keep in touch the way we do. And credit to his Mum too, for being so supportive of it.

I'm doing okay. I heard from the L this week with the draft financial agreement. It all looks okay and I replied to her on that basis. Once this agreement is signed, H plans to finalise the D. I will receive a welcome chunk of money at that point, and remaining funds when our house sells. I won't be able to buy a place myself just yet, but cash flow will be healthy again.

I've been feeling pretty even about things. TBH, I have lost the 'love' feelings for H. Although I understand MLC and have read widely around it, it just seems hard to retain those warm feelings in the face of absolute 'goneness.' The most I feel able to do is entertain the possibility that things could change at some point, and that I may want to consider possible R if that happened. But that feels light years away and I've quite accepted that our R is over and I shall move on. Though I still don't plan to date for a good while.

I've been pretty busy at work and done some social stuff. Went to a cocktail masterclass last night, which was fun. I went pretty easy on the drinks and glad I did as I still have a headache today. Been at the bookstore and have to pop back there later. I'm out with girlfriends tomorrow night, parade on Sunday with divorce group friends and a happiness workshop Monday.

This week, the divorce workshop organisers asked if I would be willing to train as a facilitator, which I would like to do. But I've told them not just yet. I'd like our D to be finalised and some time passed before I feel confident in my own emotions to be in that role. Nice to be asked though and that will probably be an Autumn thing.

Some friends having a challenging time just now, due to bereavements, health and work troubles. Mine no longer seems to be the life in crisis and I am glad to help others now. As for H, no contact since his birthday, when I wished him a happy day - and he never responded....charming! I just shrug now

Anyway, thanks for reading and hope everyone has a fabulous Friday xxx