I hope you get better soon JujuB. This whole thing can really take a toll on you physically as well as mentally. I have never in my life had a panic attack but swear I was on the verge the last couple days. I found it happens now when I need to contact her or respond to something. Who ever say you stop walking on eggshells when they leave. I don't just walk on them, I tap dance. But I will not let her see or know that, point being I am also faking it to until I actually do detach.
Get well JujuB and take care of you.
Me 41 W 33 M 2013 Suspect A 11/15 Confirm A 1/16 She moved out 2/14/16 Stepson 13 Stepson 16