Yes, a voice activated recorder. Everything is on the up and up, but it does confirm my W's reluctance to rush into an immediate reconciliation until her own issues are fixed. Which scares me because she may not want to after her IC sessions.
I did the ultimatum last week during a fury filled rage, which I regretted the next day, but it's still stuck in her head. I'm trying the DB process now, but like I said, its hard not being in contact with someone you've been in daily contact with for nearly 30 years. Maybe I'm just projecting about MC tomorrow. It scares the [censored] out of me.
My W still works with OM but like I said, she's disgusted by his presence and hated that he took complete advantage of her. Not that she couldn't say NO, but still - its difficult for her as well. She can't quit due to losing her income - but at this point, I'd rather her quit and I would pick up the slack if need be. Maybe that is something I can bring up in MC tomorrow.
I'm just in a bad place now, scared to death. Hate this helpless feeling.
Me: 52 Her: 48 2D 26 & 16 M: 25 years (together 30) EA/discovered by accident Valentines day 2016 Admitted SOME physical but no IC. We know that's a lie. Status - tryin to R
