What the heck is this?

[2Times2Many]

Thank you Job, mleigh4 and tfish08 for helping to "bring me down."

I've calmed down and am doing better today. I'm so glad I've learned to do my venting here and not grab my phone to send angry texts. I want to thank all of you so much for the support you give me.

Job, I'm aware of many lies he's told, but I always assumed the lies were mostly about things like what he was doing and who he was doing it with or to try to manipulate me into doing something I might not want to do, but is of benefit to him. I really have to be wary of the manipulation thing because he's pretty good at that. It just never occurred to me that he would lie about something as mundane as doing remote sessions on his computer. It just seemed so completely pointless.

I think you're right. He probably really does believe he keeps a closer tab on things here than he actually does. And I can imagine that he thinks he spent hours viewing reports earlier in the day when it was actually earlier in the week. I'm thinking back to a couple of days ago when he couldn't remember if he had talked to me earlier in the day.

I know his is not the life of riley. I've listened for days now about all the issues that have come up in moving to his new place and all the problems with the place itself. Apparently, the landlord has not lived up to promises made when the lease was signed. I'm not even sure he had to move ... I suspect (based on things he said a couple of months ago) that this is more a change of scenery in his search for happiness. But, those are his problems, not mine. I just say I'm sorry he's having a tough time.

mleigh4, thanks for reminding me not to take it personally. That's so easy to forget. I think I knew that somewhere deep down last night, but the emotions just washed over it like a tidal wave.

Sometimes I have to just let it wash over me and on out to sea. The trick is not to do something destructive in the midst of it all. In the past, I would have not behaved well, but I got through it this time. Yeah!

And you're right, M, I'm not at a point where I need to trust him with the exception of the business. I keep a close eye on that and so far he hasn't done anything harmful. He's too focused on making money (so he can live a care-free, fantasy lifestyle the rest of his life) to jeopardize the source of that money .... thank goodness.

tfish08, I'm sorry your h is so forgetful with your boys. That just isn't an acceptable thing to do to children. We know it's not on purpose, the the children don't understand that. Maybe you can find a way to shield them from that kind of disappointment.

I have an IC appointment this afternoon and I'm really looking forward to putting the last of this chapter to bed. Good timing!