Back on these forums again 7

[Mona52]

Fixed my PC

Chris and I decided to officially date exclusively while I was away from the forums. It is a weird learning experience for me. I have lived with my H longer than I lived with my parents growing up and he is all I know and understand. Now I am relearning a whole new person.

I spend a lot of time paranoid he will see other women behind my back. I know this is just because H did it to me for 20 years. I am trying to work through it and I never let him see my crazy.

I still go dancing on Friday and dance almost exclusively with Brian then, but Chris does not mind Brian and we do nothing inappropriate. But I no longer go to singles dances on Sundays. Chris still goes to them, so every once in a while I go with him, but I feel like a piece of meat for sale there so I hate it. He does not have women hitting on him the entire time, but guys are constantly in front of me.

I became a part-time college student this month, which is completely bizarre. I only need 6 credits to finish my master's so they dropped me to part-time student. Immediately I started looking at classes I can take at a college here and right when I was at the registration page, ready to hit submit, I closed down the application. I think I am going to use my extra time with Chris. It feels weird, like I SHOULD be doing more to make myself better. It is all I have done for so many years now. But instead I want to walk in his woods (he lives in the woods, lol) or go fishing or other non-productive things. I will start my doctrine in a few months so this is only a temporary break.

I have also quit one of my part-time jobs. I dont feel like a freak anymore . In the space of 2 weeks I went from working fulltime, plus 2 part-time jobs, plus full time college to working full time, one part time job and part time college. It feel weird to type that.

It looks like winter is finally behind us and the sun makes my PMA shoot through the roof. Spring is when sitch's here get really shaken up, so brace yourselves people. I will try and hit threads as soon as i can!