Hi MB. So happy your back home and S was released. It may have seemed early to you. I'm sure if they had concerns they would have kept him.
You are a very strong woman. Remember that. My advice. Do NOT go see H today. I honestly see nothing good coming from you seeing H today.
If he thinks of you and feels a need to contact you he will. I am asking you to let it be for now for your own sanity.
When I read you wanted to see H today at his place in hopes of a positive reaction to anniversary. I tried to think of the positives from it. And negatives.
If the situation is negative it is going to have a far stronger effect on you personally than a positive one.
Best positive I see is all is forgiven and starting a new R. Chances of that I'm sorry to say aren't high right now. And if it did happen there will still be a lot of work and still no promise of success.
Worst case, and I have been avoiding this one cause it would crush me. You go over to see him and OW is there. It would destroy any progress I had made.
I'm wish your situation today would have gave me the opportunity to make you feel better. It makes me smile knowing you are smiling at my words.
Remember you are a beautiful desirable woman. Any man would be lucky to have you. We all need to be lucky to have ourselves first tho.
You will make it through this MB. And we are all here to help.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
