Spark, it's so normal to focus on them and what they're doing, etc. Your situation is SO new. Be gentle and kind with yourself. The story is not over. We don't know the ending, so do your best to head towards the ending you want. At least face in that direction if that's all you can do now.
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat