Yeah, I feel it. And even though I would be willing to forgive her for cheating, I think. I need to know. I have a tampon that she took off last night, no it's not bloody. I found a lab online that does semen tests and will mail it there when I save up the money. I know it's a new low for me. I thought that I was doing good with the GAL and detaching, but I guess I'm not. I know I don't have a choice but to let go, I just hate being lied to.
