Jb9140 feel for you. Listen to the regulars posting on here. Trust them. I was sceptical, it works. Your now is not your forever. If you get 10 mins, read my story. It is current and I hit the stage you are at very recently. It will show you the stages I have gone through, what has worked, what hasn't, and the common themes that seem to re-occur the world over. Get legal advice over children. and I can't emphasise enough to keep posting and take strength from the absolutely amazing people on here. Hang tough my friend. It will change.
me45,W43 S9,S5 T15yrs M10yrs BD 4/07/15 W wants D 4/07/15 W filed 8/05/15 D petition arrived 21/12/15 Merry xmas, W,S5 S9 moved out 5/2/16