You are really on the right path. I am so impressed with how much you have grown and you have the best attitude.
I know you are down, but you are not out. You are still NC, GAL'ing in the midst of being in a funk. Keep it up - you are going to be the best version of yourself for the next relationship with or without W (but, I have to say you are pretty great right now, so the next partner is a lucky gal :-).
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16