Maybe then my heart will catch up with my head and I will truly know that it is over. Because my head tells me it is over….that my H has moved on with the OW, he filed for D, bought a home and told the boys that he is proceeding with the divorce. I would love for my heart to "catch up" to my head and understand that it is time to throw in the towel, drop the rope, move forward, etc.
At least I am not crying. I think I am slightly disgusted with myself for taking all the horrible things he dished out and still hoping that we could try to fix our M. Or, maybe I am just numb. And exhausted. Really. Freaking. Exhausted.
I know how this feels. This is the same feeling of where I am at. I have no advice because I have been in this feeling for..4-5 days now. It is better somedays and then really hard the next day and sometimes it going hard and easy 1735347 times in one day.Just know I know how you feel. I am trying to detach, and focus 100% on kids and me. I think it is all we can do for now while we wait on out hearts to catch up.
