Looking for a Spark in the dark 3

[Sparkls]

A little more back story on my last year:

When my mom's cancer recurred back in like Dec of 15, there was a surgery that likely could've saved her life. But it was a big surgery, would've involved taking half of her tongue. Mom and GMa were convinced homeopathic medicine would cure her cancer, so she did nothing. Over the next few months, I was able to change her mind but it was too late, cancer was too big and there were no options left.
Mom continued homeopathic stuff (marijuana oil, etc).
I went to visit her a few times, finally taking 3 weeks to see her in June and help her transition to hospice. When I got there, her internet got turned off, her power was about to. No one had been paying her bills. So I took control of her finances. My family had been mooching off her heavily and I nipped that in the bud so I could actually pay to keep her power on. I also brought her jewlery back to PA with me as my family is incredibly untrustworthy (one uncle has stolen from us heavily before and he was constantly visiting her). The net result of this is that everyone turned against me. Spent every day telling my mom I was stealing all her money and all her things (depsite the fact that I'm her only heir anyway). I was harrased and beaten up constantly from the day I left until well after she died. It was horrible. Truly terrible. I tried to stand up for myself but was just sh*t on time and time again. It really beat me down and I still anticipate horrible texts everytime my phone rings (PTSD much?) I eventually had to just lock the doors on the house and ignore my entire family (my GMa was the worst offender despite being "on my side" while I was out there) H was there telling me not to listen to what they said, that my mom knew I loved her and wouldn't steal from her despite everyone whispering in her ear every day.

And now, the whole thing is repeating itself with H.
This new group of people have spent the last 9 months telling him how unhappy he is with me. How much better off he'll be without me. How much better OW is for him. (It's no coincidence that OW was so unhappy in her 7 year relationship and then suddenly he's miserable in ours.)

And I am sh*t on again. I've lost that entire side of my family and now H too. I always said he was the family I *chose* And I know that he's the one screwed up and not right in the head but I'm the one suffering all the consequences. I'm surviving each day but I just can't seem to get a foot hold in anything.I must have really p*ssed someone off in a previous life to ever deserve this.