Looking at my earlier posts I don't know what to think. Is she trying to ease her sense of guilt, is she thinking of me as a good friend who she feels affection for or is it something else? Hard to say but as always I'll have to keep on my own path. It is incredible to think she can say the situation is good for me when it has almost destroyed her R with S. I don't think she knows what she is saying or feeling when she communicates with me. The happy smiles, the sad tears, the kisses, miss yous on one hand then the planning monies for the future, house advice, her daily life on the other. She does spin my head and emotions round but I just have to keep resetting and going again, always remembering that I don't know what is going on in 98% of her life and so can only live my own.
