Sometimes we have to let them have it. You've stated your thoughts and feelings and you are going to feel better about it. Now, you just pick yourself up and continue moving forward.
Your h couldn't look at you because he feels a lot of guilt. If he looked at you, he would have seen the pain in your eyes and that would have made him feel worse. His empathy chip is broken and/or nonexistent right now. He has to make himself cold so that he doesn't feel anything. It's all part of the MLC. Trust me, when he was by himself later, he thought a lot about selling the house and vacation home.
Don't worry about whether or not you messed things up. Again, sometimes we have to tell them like it is and this was one of those times.
Continue to focus on you and keep moving forward.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
