Just a different perspective to maybe give you some hope back:
Maybe the reason he hasn't contacted you is *because* it did something to him. That he's confused and questioning himself and doesn't want to talk to the source of his confusion?

One of those pesky errors in thinking that vanilla posted on one of our threads (Red maybe?) is catastrophizing. That's what you're doing. I'm just a guilty of it. We both have to stop. My H couldn't make eye contact with me. THere could be a million reasons for that. It's not my job to figure them all out and play pin the emotion on the cheater, ya know?
No mind reading! (said to you and myself)

If you want some ray of hope, go read T0324's story. I've been going through it today. There may just be a light at the end of the very long, dark, scary, uncomfortable tunnel.


M:26 H:32 T:8yrs
ILYBNILWY/ "I'm not happy": 2/6/16
D-Day-discovered PA/EA: 2/10/16
Separated: 2/14/16 He's living with OW
I moved to different state: 06/16
Currently: Trying to move forward