Too Much Time Is Passing By

[HopeRB]

You're right guys. And I'm learning there alot of ways to be social without having a drink when I'm feeling a bit discouraged - which is what gets me even more depressed.

I guess I'm just so overwhelmed and still in shock by the whole thing and all that I have to do to get back on my feet. Yes, I try to consistently keep a positive mental attitude, yes I have hope in God and trust Him. It would be so nice if my H called just to hear my voice, tell me he misses me. Since the day he left, I feel like he hasn't looked back at all. I mean, I'm a human being. And he acts like this is mutual. Again, this is not mutual, this is a person abandoning someone.

And I can't stop wondering how long it's going to be until I have children and get to start a family of my own, with or without H. It's now 8 months, shouldn't I be over it by now?