My first post - please be nice.

[collin]

I just don't know what to do. I cycle through a thousand emotions a day. I feel like one minute I've come to terms with the thought of her not being there. Then then next I'm in tears. Then I'm mad. Then I'm like, Ok, well, maybe this is like hitting the marriage pause button and a break will be good for us both.

I look at my wrist and we both got Matthew 19:6 tattoos and each others initials tattooed on our ring finger last year. Now, I'm like...Hello? Remember this? We vowed forever!

I know you shouldn't stay in a marriage over a tattoo, but that was the whole point in us getting the tattoos. Maybe the tattoos are the reason I'm here today. Maybe that was one other thing that lead to my complacency and me thinking I could act like a spoiled brat and she would just stick around. The more I say it, the more of a fool I feel like. I get it, I know why she wants to leave. If I were in her shoes I'd want to leave me too. I just wish she would understand how sorry I am.