Getting out of in house S (8)

[vise82]

Yeah I an not going to post it at my work, I dont want people to know. I just feel so sad about it like I failed. I know I shouldn't care what people think but this is not me, I never thought I would be one of those divorced people. I am not divorced yet but you know what I mean.

I guess I am not ready to tell people yet. I will get there eventually but right now its not the time.

At an old job before this one everyone knew were expecting a baby, W was at the work Christmas party showing. Then the worst happened and due to complications we lost the baby. The reaction at work very uncomfortable. I couldn't stand it. The looks or no looks, people not knowing what to say to me. It was a constant reminder everyday as I tried to work. I ended up taking a new job and I think part of why I left that job was the tragedy of losing that baby. I got a fresh start and no one knew about the loss at my new job. I was able to move on.

For a couple of weeks I think I am ready to tell co workers then sadness just fills me and I think I am not ready to say anything yet about the separation.

The house is listed on a national website so I am sure they might know but no one has asked me about it. It has allowed me to deal with it in my own way. Allowing me to concentrate on my work, to just put aside the S and just do what I need to do at work.