Thanks everyone for chiming in. As I thought my beginning of the week couldn't get worse. I received an email from STBXH outlining financial agreement. Now bear in mind that I just asked him to write a letter to the mortgage people about how much child maintenance he'll give me and that he agrees that I take over 50% of the mortgage. The child maintenance is less than what he pays now for his eldest child, but he also accept the renounce about my pension and my property that I have received from my family before we got married. On the letter he also stated that I'll not claim anything that he inherits! And he goes on about child access.

I know I have to be very careful about it all, but why would he mention me getting access to his inheritance as he said once the house is sold he'd file for divorce!

I'm not there to get him, and I have always been very fair with him so far.

Don't get it. On top of that I might lose the house I want to buy! At the moment everything is drowning me . I want to cry, why am I in this situation? Why do I even want to reconcile with someone who cheated on me, pushed me to kick him out, then who doesn't see a future with this OW! Gosh I have a very low self esteem of myself!