I know that several people have posted that I need to deal with the financial issues (truck, cell phone) at this point and that the divorce decision should be separate. I don't feel that separating the two is possible. The minute I have the truck repo'd and the cell phone disconnected, I have effectively ended my marriage as well.

I'll need to deal with the truck on Mon. I waited until after the last day of the grace period (10 days beyond due date) to see if H would make the payment. It wasn't made, so I now have my first ever late payment at the ripe old age of 46. It just makes me sick. I tried calling H to discuss this, but he won't take/return my calls.

The emotional stuff is hard enough but having to also deal with this is just unbearable.